5 K-R&B Artists You Need To Listen To

I have been into K-pop for over 6 years? (Maybe more), since my primary school days. I will never forget the hit songs like ‘Gee’ and ‘Nobody’ has brought to my childhood. I still remember binge-watching SNSD music videos all the time in 5th Grade.

However, sometimes I get bored of listening to the generic K-pop music. They are all catchy, has a good beat and always have the same lyrics. K-pop is more of the kind of music which you stop listening after a month.

Therefore, there are so much more in Korean Music that is yet to discover!! The R&B music there is amazing! And here are just a few recommendations to start your exploration in k-music!! 🙂

1)Zion T.

lShEZUDBI think most of you guys will know this guy. Because he’s one of the most famous R&B artists in Korea and internationally. With his hit track ‘Yanghwa Bridge’, his career was high ever since. Each track he releases tops the charts and are quality! They are soo nice to listen to and his voice is mesmerising.

He is known for his infamous sunglasses wherever he goes and performs. His songs aren’t catchy at your first listen, but give it time, it will grow on you!

 

Here are some of my favourite songs from him!

Yanghwa Bridge: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uLUvHUzd4UA

Eat: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ibb5RhoKfzE

No Makeup: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eqcte1r3aiQ

*Basically all his most famous songs heehee but his album ‘Eat!’ is very good and all the songs are soo good!*

2)Crush

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Who is this cutie pie!? (hahah fangirl mode on!) Yes, this is my favourite R&B artist in K-music, he’s called Crush. He’s only 24 and debuted at 20.

He has an amazing voice and his songs are all self-composed (pure talent!). He’s friends with Zion T. and they were shipped together for a long time (because they were in the same company) but ever since Zion T moved to YG ent., they became distant 😥

(Hence the song ‘Empty’ by Zion T)

I really enjoyed his album ‘Crush On You’, his most recent album ‘Interlude’ was great as well!

 

Here are some of his best songs:

Oasis: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_1SX7W1IfJw

Whatever You Do: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=efvicp2UysY

Sometimes: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VN4EusA9zmE

Sometimes (Baek Yerin Cover): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HtJTcnyGZ04

Woo-ahh: h

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3) Eddy Kim

Eddy-Kim-01 Here is an artist who is more on the acoustic side of R&B. Eddy is known for his appearance in the survival show ‘Superstar K4’ as one of the finalists.

He is know for his delicate sweet voice and his guitar skills. All his songs are self-written and are the perfect songs to listen to when you’re chilling or reading a book. It’s just so relaxing.

I often find myself listening to him in the dark before I go to sleep, like a lullaby (hahha)

 

Some of my favourite songs from him:

The Manual: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y4mH2KvzUQ0

Slow Dance: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TIG5BPyjDlw

My Lips like warm coffee: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FjWMQyZXm20

Coffee and Tea: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3owhJfYZXGQ

4) Sam Kim

13000185_1069845593079474_1808322313633333864_n  This is a rookie artist and just debuted this year . Sam Kim was originally from Seattle in USA and came over to Korea to participate in the survival show ‘K-pop Star 3’, and he finished second!

He’s only 19 and has a lot of talent. He is known for his extensive guitar skills and his soft voice. On stage, he has a lot of charisma. (fan girl alert for those dimples!)

Due to the reason that he has just debuted, not a lot of people has heard his music and I would say he’s underrated for his talent. Therefore, please give him a listen!!

 

Some of his best songs:

No Sense: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7TnK6iitTYg

Seattle: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KiCIDEWVwWU

Since he doesn’t have that many songs out yet, here are some covers he did 🙂

That xx (G-Dragon): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VDV8p5wwguI

Englishman in New York: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HR-_41ntgK0

5) Lee Jin Ah

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Last but not least, our only female R&B artist in the list! (Shows that I’ve such a soft heart for boys ahha)

I wouldn’t say that Lee Jin Ah’s is proper R&B but she is definitely contemporary R&B artist, with acoustic elements as well.

She also participated in ‘K-pop Star 4’ and finished third!

She is known for her high-pitched and cute voice. Her voice is very distinct but at the same time very soothing. Her piano skills are also no joke!

*She also just debuted this year, so doesn’t have that much original songs*

Here are some recommendations:

Time Please Slow Down (Keyboard version): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c84p7Gm2uSA

I’m Full: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zB57Dss5XG4

I love you song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=haOgUkBHxz8

Sing the Road: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4diiYCvptJw

 

I don’t know if some of these artists are truly R&B style but still, I find them very relaxing to listen to.

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Friends

I think we can all agree that we want to be loved by everyone, we want to be the perfect person that everybody looks up to, we want to be ‘goals’. When I scroll through my tumblr feed, I see these pretty and tanned girls in a bikini admiring the sunset, instead of feeling a sign of awe, I had a sign of defeat. In reality, we really can’t be the perfect person, even the pretty girls in those ‘perfect’ pictures, there will always be people who find us annoying, and there will always be people who don’t favour us. We all have our bad habits.

That’s what friends are for. True and genuine friends will tolerate your bad habits, they’re the ones that share the same characteristics, habits and interest as you and those, are the ones that will help you all the way through life and don’t hold grudges against you. True friends won’t isolate you for someone else, true friends stick up to you no matter what, and trust me, there will only be just a few in your entire life. You don’t need a hundred people to care about you because chances are, the majority of them don’t care and just want your attention, true friends however do care and thinks about your needs before theirs. In primary school, I used to be friendless because I was different, I was new to the environment and I didn’t know anyone, I remember I would cry everyday until a girl approached me one day and asked me if I was okay before anyone else, she did it because she cared, she did it because she noticed and was concerned. The feeling was new and touching, it was like finding light in the big dark world and I can tell you that the girl that became my first friend in life is now my best friend for 7 years.

Friends are bonded through memorable things, you both have a mutual memory of each other. The small talks you have with them, the DMCs you talk about all night, the memorable school trips you had together. A friend is somebody that can insult your insecurities and you won’t feel offended because you know they’re joking. Sometimes at night, I wonder what i wake up everyday for, what is something that is worth while for me to get up and sleep at a decent time? Well, friends do, we look forward to school, to trips, to dates because we want to make more memories with your friends, going to school and studying might not be fun but you will find that the best memories you have in life lies in the memories you make at school. A school is a portal for you to make friends so treasure it. I think there is a clear difference between lovers and friends, Lovers are a pair of people who are passionately in love and can tolerate each others flaws; friends are a group of people who respect you for who you are and were there to witness your success since day 1.

 

My First Concert Experience

Yesterday, I was able to see the legendary band Coldplay in the Wembley Stadium. Despite the masses of people and long hours of wait until they came up, it was an amazing experience.

Through this concert, I finally understand why people say that live performances are always better than watching a concert through a screen. The whole aroma, the whole atmosphere is just completely different. It’s not only you and your computer, but with 10,000 other people enjoying the same music. The thoughts of that is just amazing.

It was not the fact that I was able to see Chris Martin and the whole band up close, but the fact that everybody was there for a sole reason: to listen and enjoy the music they love. Despite our different backgrounds, from a teenager to a middle-aged woman, we all have one common interest: we all love Coldplay. The fact that people unite for music is just amazing.

It was also a rainy Sunday, and to be very honest, it wasn’t the best weather to be holding a concert. However when the lights turned on and the music turned up, everybody was instantly in a good mood. I can never forget the cheers when ‘Viva La Vida’ came up, the emotion and gratitude we had for these 4 people, making music to motivate us to get through our lives.

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Can we just take a moment and appreciate Chris Martin 🙂

Even though the concert was over and everybody was waiting to get out, there was still the cheering sounds and the singing of the melody of ‘Viva La Vida’. Naturally, everybody joined, it was such an emotional scene, we were all connected together because of Coldplay. Through this concert, I have truly understood the power of music.

I don’t think I could have asked for a better first concert experience. Coldplay was the perfect match, their songs were motivating and unique, they are different from the mainstream artists. They have something special that makes everyone appeal to them, this aroma around them, I can’t explain it.

I will never ever forget when the yellow lights that lit up across the whole stadium when the song ‘Yellow’ was playing. Let’s hope my second concert will top this one! haha 🙂

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A Story of Success (Pt. 1)

Everyday, I go on Facebook and Instagram, looking at these flawless pictures of celebrities. I want to be one of them, so badly.. so badly…

Wouldn’t life be so much easier if I had a thousand wishes, so much easier if I had wealth and love at the same time.. There is this ideal world that I picture, and it always seems far away from me. Why is life so unfair?

I went to bed that night, holding on to this thought. The thoughts of a successful life, fame and money. I snuggled up in my humble bed, and went to sleep…

I woke up to see that I’m stuck in blank space, nowhere to go. There was a wavering spirit shaped in purple, I stepped closer to it.. It said to me, ‘Do you want me to grant your wish?’

Not knowingly, I naturally nodded, and everything went back to darkness. Not knowing that it was the turning point of my life..

I woke up again, to find that I’m back at home, back in my sheets. So it was a dream, huh.. no such thing as magic in this world.

But then I heard the sounds of cameras and saw flashes outside my window. What’s going on? I looked out and saw a herd of 20 photographers waiting patiently outside. I was confused, what is happening.

Idiotically, I opened the door and stepped outside. Before I even said a word, the photographers already started taking photos, the brights lights were so shiny that I was confused of what to do. I just stood there, letting the voices past me by, I’m so confused.

I went back in and looked at phone. I scrolled down to Facebook, and to my amazement my whole feed was filled with my articles. Articles about me releasing a new album, a new fashion line and being the top 100 richest people in the world. How did this all happen in one night? Has time advanced? Am I in the future?

However, naturally I smiled and giggled.. This is the life I’ve always wanted! It’s happening now!!! I screamed inside. Just imagine how many things I will be able to do in my life!

Well, that’s what I thought…

 

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My Life, My Choices

I feel like society has painted a lot of images as to what is good for a career. As an asian, my parents think that a professional job (e.g. doctors, lawyers and engineers) are jobs that can give you stability and financial security. I am always pressured to fulfil their wishes but I know deep inside, this is not what I want to be.

It’s really sad to see people going to work for the sake of going to work, it might not be something they particularly enjoy but they take the job anyways, because they have wages that they can live by. In a money oriented society, people consider it as a big thing in their career. All people want, is to buy a house that they can comfortably live in and build a family, this all costs money. Therefore, for the sake of earning the money, people go with the job with the higher wage, and don’t follow their passion.

I believe if you follow your passion, you would achieve even further because you enjoy what you’re doing, and nothing you do bores you. You would lead to a healthier life that way and be happy. If your passion is saving people from diseases, good for you; if your passion is to be dancer, sign up for auditions, it’s never too late, and if you’re scared, just think that you have nothing to lose.

Don’t be influenced by your family’s wishes and don’t be wavered by how your friends are doing, because in the end of the day, it’s your choice to make the move. Break out of your comfort zone and confess that you want to be who you are, and not something you’re not. You are the designer of your life, nobody designs it for you, it’s your individual masterpiece, so don’t waste it. As they all say, you only live once, do the things you love before it’s too late and it will take you somewhere, somehow, it’s funny how events are all linked and happen for a reason. Design a life you love, make your friends and family proud of your achievements, prove to them you are more than what they think.

Grasp the time you’ve got and make use of it. Don’t just sit there in front of a computer and dream about an ideal life, because you’re not making anything happen. Seeing people on the internet gaining success might make you feel really discouraged because you’ve achieved nothing significant yet but think of it as a goal to look up to.

Time is valuable so do the things you love and not the things you are reluctant to do, take the risk, no regrets. You have a dream, so make it happen.

 

 

Procrastination??

Exams.. the most dreaded event in my school years, very interesting how school arrange these horrible things in your life… What is the purpose? Make us study even when we’re supposed to relax? All the distractions, internet, social media are things that distract me from my so called ‘revision timetable’ Is it because our brains are always attracted to things we like doing??? Why can’t I just sit down, do a couple hours of studying and then relax for a bit? Why do I have to look at my phone every second even though nothing is happening? It’s frustrating because it’s so hard not to do it..

Even when I’m studying, I think about how much more I have to do, and how I’m never going to cover all of the syllabus before exams, I freak out, have a mental breakdown, and then back to Facebook.. 2 hours later, I’m still on Facebook, for some reason, forgot that I’m behind and continue until it’s time for me to sleep. Why can’t I be disciplined? Why is procrastination so powerful.. Our human minds in some situations are never in our favour.

I wish.. that I could love studying, I would embrace that everything I learn is to broaden my ‘horizon’, I wish I could think of school work as fun. But how can you love something when people around you hate it, it influences you to not like it either. The memes on Facebook, the messages of teenagers my age complaining about how school sucks, these all make me think that school is negative. People think school is a chore, but it’s really not.. I’ve thought about this lately, school is actually where you create most of your happy memories and experiences, you learn how to socialise, meet friends, go on school trips, complain about how bad your life is, make fun of teachers… There are actually a lot of good aspects of school. It’s not just a place of torture and education, it’s actually a place to get a taste of what society is like.

If you fail your internal exams at school, it’s not the end of the world. It’s a good mistake, and you can evaluate what you did wrong and improve your way of revision for the next set of exams. However, you only have a few of these chances before the real public exams come. Public exams are a whole different subject, they matter, they sculpt your future, that is what fears me the most. I haven’t done any yet, and the fact that it matters, scares me. When I look back at the previous exams, I regret not doing more work, regret procrastinating. However, when I’m revising now, I’m still doing the same thing. Is it because I’m used to it? Used to not working and suddenly have to start doing it on a daily basis? Why am I so lazy!!!!

It is going to be hard not to procrastinate, but I think of it as dieting. Dieting is hard at first, forcing yourself not to eat that bowl of french fries two inches away from you, but after a few weeks of perseverance, you start to get used to it, and that bowl of french fries doesn’t appeal that much to you. I think procrastination is a slightly worse version of dieting because it’s soooo hardddd!! Therefore, before I pick up my phone, before I decide to scroll on my feed on Facebook, I think twice. Is this going to benefit my future? Is it actually that important to miss out on the world’s irrelevant gossip on celebrities? Do I actually care about what the Kardashians are up to? The answer is often no, so I just.. stop.. 😛 (it’s actually not that easy, trust me)

 

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Childhood

Childhood is a period of time where we stay innocent, oblivious in the world. When we were children, we were fed by this idea that the world is a fantasy with fairies and pixie dust. We get so absorbed into this artificial world that we don’t take notice about the things happening around us, stuck in this little made up bubble.

I still remember that a lot of things were more acceptable as I was a child. When I accidentally spilt a drink on someone, the person would actually smile and say it’s ok. However, now when I’m older, whenever I do something accidental, people would always death stare me and curse me behind my back. Why is this?

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I feel as I grow older, you are expected to have more responsibility, you are supposed to grow up and follow society’s rules. That’s why I don’t want to grow up, because as I grow older and older, I am more exposed to society and therefore have to take responsibility for myself and my future. Learning how to be organised and set your priorities straight.

I think childhood is a rosy period where you are loved by the people around you the most. It’s a shame that I don’t remember most of my childhood, everything is a blur. All the princess and pinky things I used to have, and my obsession with cartoon network and Disney, now are all memories.

Society forces us to grow up, forces us to try new things, meet new challenges and mature. Naturally, we would forget the drip drops of our childhood because we are so occupied in our daily lives now. However, it is good to throwback and think about the precious moments in your childhood, the silly mistakes and embarrassing things you used to say, it reminds you who you truly are. Not this person that society wants you to be, but a person with a true unique colour.

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‘Come with me, where dreams are born and time is never planned’

                                        -Peter Pan

 

 

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Beginner’s Guide: Makeup

I’ve recently fell in love with exploring makeup, and am kind of obsessed with it 😛 It’s not that I want to cover up my imperfections or really want a makeover, it’s just that I love the satisfaction when you look in the mirror and see a different side of you.

It is such a fun thing and is great for bonding with friends as there is just so much to talk about.

Of course I’m not a professional makeup artist, so therefore these things are just in my personal point of view.

Here is a list of what I would recommend if you’re starting off your makeup bag.

BB cream

NIVEA-BB-kremi-001I personally started off with the Nivea BB cream. I always find foundation very thick and cakey on your face, so BB cream is a good substitute. It is lighter in texture and also moisturise your face at the same time, as well as giving good coverage.

Also, they are about 7-8 pounds each, which is affordable and lasts you a long time.

Other good BB creams: Maybelline Dream Pure BB cream, Etude House Precious Mineral BB cream

Concealer

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You can either buy stick or liquid concealer. Personally, I started off with the Love Fille Nude face concealer which I bought in Japan. It is a stick concealer and I find it is more dry on the face. If you would want your face to be more highlighted, I suggest you buy a concealer a shade lighter than your skin tone, which would bring out your features more. I also feel that a liquid concealer has more coverage than stick ones but stick ones are more convenient and easy to apply.

Price Range: £5-8

Other good brands: M.A.C, NYX concealers (has colour cancelling ones as well)

Eye Shadow

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If you starting out eye shadow, it will be good if you start of with a palette with nude colours, whether it is a shiny or matt. Once you master the nude colours, you can experiment with more bold colours such as blue, grey and pink. There are a lot of variations within nude colours, and can be the basis of a lot of simple eye makeup.

This is the palette I started off with (Kate Tokyo Brown Shade Eyes) and it does wonders!! You can achieve a natural and smokey look with only these 3 colours.

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Price range: £7-12

Other really good palettes: Too-faced Chocolate bar palette, Sleek Divine Eye shadow Au Natural

Eyeliner

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You have two choices here: liquid or pencil. As a beginner, I find using a pencil is much more easier to master than liquid. Having a pencil eyeliner means that you can control how dark you want your eyeliner to be, therefore can achieve a more natural look.

I highly recommend buying an eyeliner with a thin tip (just a like a felt tip pen) because it’s easier to refine your lines and vary them as well.

Price range: £5-10

Other brands: Revlon Eyeliner, Maybelline precise eyeliner

Mascara

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Part of the Maybelline’s Collection

Now for mascara!! The most important finishing touch to your eyes!

I recommend using a lash curler to make you lashes longer before applying mascara, because it does add to the effect.

I personally think that Maybelline has the best range of mascaras and cover a lot of looks.

I wanted to achieve a more natural look so am using the Colossal Volume Mascara and it’s very good, the effect is very subtle but effective.

The mascaras that have a bend curls your lashes even more, enhancing your eyes even more. (Perfect for smokey eyes looks)

Price Range: £7-10

Other products: Rimmel London Super Curler

Lips

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NYX liquid lipstick collection

The photo on the left is the NYX liquid lips collection. Liquid lip stick’s colours are more prominent (I find) and are easier to blend as well.

I would recommend to use darker colours for the winter and brighter colours for the summer.

These are very convenient but can sometimes be a bit messy.

Other brands: Kylie Jenner Lipsticks, Megalast

 

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M.A.C Lipstick collection

Ordinary stick lipsticks are very handy and are much softer on the lips.

You can always use lipstick as your blusher and just blend it out. (It actually works!)

They are also easier to apply and dry out quicker than liquid ones.

It would be good to at least have one stick lipstick in your makeup bag, maybe in the colour that goes with the majority of your looks.

Other brands: Cyber Colours, Estee Lauder (any drug store brands)

Price Range: Really varies depending on which brand you have but usually you can get the cheapest from £1.

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This is all for my recommendations. I think this is a decent amount you could start off with. Hope you have found this useful! xx

In terms of contouring and highlighting, I think it is better to explore this later on when you have mastered the basic eye shadowing, applying foundation etc.

If you want a good starting brush kit, the Real Technique‘s brush kits are very good quality and also are sold at a reasonable price 🙂

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A Little Story

Chapter 1)

Mum is always telling me to go to bed every night but I don’t want to. Not when I don’t have a reason to wake up, I will sleep at a decent time when I know there is something worth waking up for. My life is crumbling, it has become uninteresting, there’s nothing I can look forward to. My mum always say that I have potential in being great but as I’ve grown up I’ve realised she was saying that to make me feel better. I still remember the day when I saw the colours in my eyes fading, seeing my classmate’s uniform’s colour fade, my sudden confusion, I couldn’t comprehend what was happening, everything around me was slowly fading into 2 simple colours: black and white. I don’t what happened next but the next thing I saw was the tears of my mother, sitting next to the hospital bed with her sorrowful look, I was only 5 and didn’t know what to do but one thing was for sure, my heart was aching. From then on, I’ve become more aware that I’m colour blind, the doctor told me that my case is different and that I needed some stimulant to recover but he didn’t know what, basically letting me accept the fact I will forever be colourblind.

Life after that was so different, I couldn’t go to school because I was so negative and hated being underestimated. I did try to go to school but all I could hear was, ‘So she’s the colour blind girl.’, I hate being labelled, I hate being different, I hate being myself. I have lost interest in food because I couldn’t see the colours, I have lost interest in movies and the media because all I could see is black and white. For the past 12 years, I’ve been living without purpose, I’m living not for my sake but for my mother, she was the only one who didn’t give up on me and I don’t want to let her down, she is the world to me, the only thing that I hold dearly. All the time, I feel angry with myself because I am who I am, a useless colourblind teenager who has no hope in life. I feel angry because I can do nothing about it and I feel angry because I see my poor mother suffer everyday because of me. I shouldn’t be living, I’m an outlier. I’m constantly alone in this great big world and I hate it.

I woke up today just as usual, grieving about my life and how messed up it is, eating my mother’s breakfast and telling her to go away but today, my mother sat down in front of me, looked me into her tired, concerned eyes and said, ‘Emily, you’re almost 17, we need to start thinking about college and university, you can’t hide away from reality.’ It hits me, the cruel reality. I didn’t want to hear what she wanted say, because it would just make me aggravated and I don’t want my mother to be hurt, I ran out the front door and into the unknown world that I haven’t discovered, I couldn’t handle it, going back to school is just too much to deal with, I just want to be forever immersed in my own world.

I was roaming the streets crying like an idiot, bearing the strange stares from the pedestrians. I sat on a bench and calmed myself down, but what astounded me was the glimpse of vivid green, I turned around and saw a store displaying a promotion on video games. However, what surprised me was, that the boxes of games were all in colour, right in front of my colour blind eyes, they were the first coloured objects I have seen for the past 12 years, was this a blessing from heaven? All I could see was the sparkling colourful video games that brightened. I have found the stimulant in my life, video games, it sounds ridiculous but I think I’ve found a purpose in my dull life, my heart was beating fast and I couldn’t wait to see what this would lead to my life. For the first time in my life, I was excited to be living.

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People Move On

I returned home for the summer holidays, it was nice to see back my family and friends, returning back to where it all began. I returned back to my old school, nothing really changed, still the same antique, old-fashioned building filled with memories and laughter, I missed wearing the uniform, I just missed, the conversations that I would have with my classmates. In my mind, I had the best years of my studying career here, all those memories kept flashing through my mind. There is something different than the school life I have in the UK.

I met all my old classmates but, there was a sense of awkwardness, it was like we didn’t know each other, we didn’t know what to talk about because it has been too long. I sensed the feeling that they were pushing me away. I watched my classmates play together, everything just fitted in, without me. Why do I suddenly feel left out? We were such good friends, now, it’s like nothing was even established, I was back to square zero.

It has been so long, that I don’t know what they were up to, I didn’t know what was in their mind. It has been so long, that they have forgotten about me and moved on because I am not in their life as often, which I understand. However, it’s just really saddening that my relationship with them have fallen into embarrassment and awkwardness, it upsets me that I’ve lost a friend.

Do you know the feeling that you have this long lost friend that you’ve always wanted to contact but you decide not to because they are having the time of lives without you and are doing just fine. It feels like you don’t want to disturb their life because you are no longer necessary. I always wondered what would happen if I stayed in my old school, I might still be in good contact with them and make even more memories together, I might still be able to understand their in-jokes and do the things they do now. Seeing my friends posting their daily life activities on the internet makes me want to do it with them, makes me miss them, but I never know if it’s the same to them.

People move on whether if it’s with you or without. So do you, there are just some things that you just swiftly forget as time passes because you change and you face new challenges, you meet new people and you forget the old ones. That’s just something that human nature does, we get fed up with one thing and move on to the next. I would very much want to maintain my relationship with my friends forever but that’s really difficult and hard. Only the real and true ones stay behind, it shows that they care about you, whether or not you’ve changed or awkward around them.

Sometimes, memories are the things that we hold dearest, it is a proof of good times with your friends, whether if they have moved on and forgot you or still by your side when you’re in hard times, they are just flashbacks of happy events of your life. Time moves on, so do you, but memories don’t. So, I’d rather just leave a happy memory of all my friends than actually make an effort to befriend them again because I might not like their new self and it might ruin the ‘perfect’ memories I have with them.